A friend of mine, one I go way back with, probably to like middle school, came to me cyberly, seeking advice. Now from what I've heard and the feedback I've gathered I'm pretty good at giving advice. I don't necessarily agree, which is probably why I rarely ever listen to myself. Anyway this good friend went on to tell me about her relationship troubles. According to her, her boyfriend is the reason for all of their problems. She went on to say he has a problem being faithful and a very bad wandering eye. I asked her when was the last time he wandered his eye or cheated and I was pretty confused by the answer she gave me. I guess I was expecting her to say "last week", "two weeks ago" even "last month" but she said "two years ago." TWO YEARS AGO. So then I kind of LOL'd her. Which in retrospect, was probably not the best thing to do. I I asked her why why she stayed with him if he wasn't doing right by her. And of course she said "because I love him" to which I responded "if you love him why are you holding on to something that happened two years ago?" and her answer is what prompted this blog today. My good friend that I've known since the 8th grade still managed to shock the shit out of me by answering my question with one simple statement "I'm a grudgeholder , whatever, it's not my job to forgive its God's." Boy was I floored. Maybe because I've never gotten that perspective before. And never so blatantly. But then it got me to thinking, why does God forgive? And why do we as humans give him so many reasons to do so? And do we as a people use God as a reason to do stupid things? When you're young and growing up, you make a mistake and your mom or your grandmother or your dad or your grandpa tells you that all you have to do is ask for forgiveness and you will receive it. Clean slate no questions asked. But there are a solid couple BILLION people in this world. Imagine someone everyday making a stupid mistake, most likely the same one or a ridiculous variation of it and they running to you with "remorse" and you're just EXPECTED to forgive them. Bullshit right? Exactly. But that is what we as humans or as the religious say "sinners" do. I mean not only do we ruin things for ourselves and others constantly but most of the time we have the NERVE to be self-righteous about it. And then head straight to God expecting and taking for granted his forgiveness. Shame on it. I'm no saint on any account either but geez. I'm sure it wouldn't kill any of us to have a slice of humble pie with a side helping of selflessness. It's a wonder God hasn't struck us all down already. It really must get tiring, unconditional love, and for what just another let down in the end. Maybe if he retired or went away for a while on a retreat to get the kinks of the idiocy in human race rubbed out. People would notice just how good they have it with their slate wiped and polished at their convenience. But no-one is God so no-one would know.
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