Pats On The Back

I haven't written in a while because I've been completely blocked. Not to mention I've been dealing with real life. Unfortunately, both of these things tend to be hectic resulting in the halt to my creative progress. Today though, I'm taking the time out to acknowledge how far I've come physically as well as emotionally. I've realized that once a person takes an active interest in what goes on with their body on the outside, things on the inside just start to follow suit. As of late, I've been working really hard to lose weight. It's not that I think I'm gross or anything like that , it's more so based on the differentiation of vision. When I look at my own reflection sometimes I see what should be there and not what is. When It hit me that what I see is not my reality, I knew that how I feel about myself and what is reflected to the world should be one in the same. Thus beginning my weight-loss journey. In all honesty, I just want to be my version of healthy. I'm okay with never being a size six, I'm okay with cellulite, I'm okay with love handles, I'm okay with stretch marks. What I'm not okay with is being exhausted after walking a block. What I'm not okay with is having to fake a  yawn to cover up the fact that I can't breathe. Yes, my body is not built like the average person, simply by Birthright. But I know now that I don't have to exercise how everyone else exercises. I have to do my version of exercise, my way,  sothat it is comfortable and safe for me. That is what I've been doing since I've made my mind up to actually take my body seriously and I've lost 15 to 25 pounds so far. It feels good to know that the me I recognize and the me that other people see, are now the same person. I'm not always the nicest, I'm very emotional and complicated but overall,my spirit, my soul, my essence is strong powerful and very kind. My outer beauty can only compliment that. I'm really proud of myself for finally taking the steps in the right direction. I have a long way to go and considering I'm constantly under the weather, I know that it's not going to be a cakewalk, but as long as I'm here, I'm ready.