Wine.

I've been so distracted. My birthday is coming and considering  everything  I've  been through this year and every year prior for that matter I am grateful. I have many goals to fufill and so many things to explore for my twenty-second year. I only hope that continue to grow and flourish into a wiser, nobler more self-assured young woman.  I am proud of all that I have accomplished thus far. I am not perfect, far from it actually.  But I do try to follow my heart, be kind to others and put my best foot foward with little regret. I often catch myself feeling angry and discontent about the parts of my journey  that are paticularly upsetting. Even though  I know every emotion is fleeting, these feelings tend to overwhelm  me. Forcing me to  deal with  feelings and emotions I tend to supress. All I ever want to do is be happy and  help my loved ones achieve the happiness they so desire as well. No matter what  happens to me, I want to be known for the love and joy I've left in the hearts  of those I cherish most. I realize that I love hard, hard but differently. I may  or may not love to the liking of everyone in my life but it doesn't take away from how I feel about them. All I can do is try. Because  all I am is human. Flesh and bone. Both easily destroyed. Is it not one's   moving body or beating heart that determines whether they are alive. It is the fighting spirit and bright eyed will that determines life. For that, when my heart does stop beating, I am destined to be immortalized by my sheer strength.  Along with a few other blazing souls I love and respect. My birthday is in six days. And I intend to celebrate wholeheartedly. Because obviously, like fine wine, I get better with age.