Odds

Drives me nuts when I'm feeling exceptionally shitty and someone tells me "don't worry it's just another bump in the road". Like obviously I know that it's a bump that's why I feel shitty in the first place.  When things fuck up it's so discouraging.  When all you want to do is live a happy life as best you can, some crazy mess comes in and ruins that. Usually out of the blue always unexpected, just messy. The really sick part of the whole deal is nothing bad seems to happen until you are at the very peak of your success, at the very tip of your happiness. It's like everything is going fine, just got yourself a new house and a new car to match and then suddenly, a crater comes and SMASHES all your new shiny things to pieces. Now I know that is a very cynical and exaggerate example but the point is made  nonetheless. In the event of that circumstance, the first thing someone would think is  "what are the odds that this will happen to me after working so hard to achieve my goal"? That's the thing, people are always saying what are the odds of this and what are the odds of that, to be completely honest the odds of something messing up when everything's going perfectly are  pretty high. And no one ever expects it, irony at its best, eh?  I can tell you though, it gets mighty tiring always getting the short end of the stick. Waiting for the good to come all the time can wear somebody out indefinitely. Why exactly should anybody have to put any of their happiness on hold? I mean, the way I've been told that karmic forces are supposed to work is that good things I supposed to happen to good people. Instead however, unfortunate circumstances follow upon the good  individuals of the world. It's enough to make you wanna cry but you don't of course , because as luck would have it humans I'm blessed and cursed with a thing called hope. So even when you really do feel your shitiest , you don't give up. Because someday, sometime, things will work out. And holding on to that is what helps us little people survive . And anything that helps survival, is alright with me.