Pained Holiday

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Things have been pretty rough, on my end. Christmas day was fine, I got the chance to see some family, eat some food and get in some quality time. Christmas evening however, my body started freaking out a little. There was some sort of lump under my arm and my left side started to swell, and I couldn't raise my arm. As I've mentioned before, my body is extremely fragile, and it is very frustrating running to the hospital for every little thing. So naturally, I just put a compress on it and waited for the swelling to subside. That was mistake number one. By Sunday the pain was so unbearable that I had no choice but to go to hospital. The emergency room to be exact. Upon arrival, I was told that I had "the worst strand of bacterial infection ever seen." I was told that I would have to get my underarm cut open and drained out. I was not prepared for the mini surgery I was faced with. To be completely honest, I was petrified. I actually tried to get out of it by informing them that I had eaten so there was no possible way they could put me under any scalpel. They calmly informed me that I couldnt afford to wait and that they needed to act now so the precedure would  have to be done while I was still awake. The doctor who performed the precedure was very kind. His name was Kevin. He numbed me to the best of his abilites and preceded to create and incision wide enough to smell the gross bacteria and see some really sticky blood. Scary, is an understament.  But all I could do was breathe and be as still as humanly possible, knowing that if he didnt get out as much bacteria as he could I would have to be admitted. That was two days ago, and I'm just grateful I made it through. Today I'll be going back to the hospital so they can check the incision for further infection and if there is, I have to do the precedure all over again. So I'm really hoping for the best news. At this point, all I really want is to not feel like a burden to those around me. That, along with having enough strength to bring in the New Year happily because to be truthful, this whole situation is way less than ideal.