The Pursuit.

I had a conversation with my best friend last night and it followed me into my dreams. We were talking about the Oscars Boycott and our humble opinions on the issue. We had come to realize that it was less about the Oscars, and more about people of our generation, and generations after us not having enough people to idolize intellectually. Don't get me wrong , the Oscars deserves to be boycotted. They've been deserving that for years. That however, is not why this conversation needs to be had. My best friend and I are noticing, in the world of entertainment today and in our own personal lives that everyone wants fame. Everyone wants to be known. Everyone wants to be talked about. But no one has anything of substance to say. No one wants to kind of notoriety that changes lives anymore. Especially, in our black community, because of technology anybody can get on the internet and do anything and blow up over night. In my opinion, that's a gift and a curse. No one works for anything, nothing really matters to anyone of my age anymore. Myself, and the people that I choose to stay surrounded by,  don't feel that way. We understand that life is meant to be lead with your heart and all your desires, if they were meant to be had, will follow. We understand how important it is to do something and say something that means something. We understand, that if we are doing what we love and we feel good inside, waking up and going to sleep full and warm, that is the success in itself. If we are making a difference in this world that means making a difference within ourselves.   It doesn't, nor will it ever matter if we get a paycheck behind it. Paychecks are wonderful and people knowing who you are is wonderful. But if money was obsolete, most people wouldn't even do what they do. Sometimes you have to ask yourself, if my 12 year old self saw me walking on the street would he or she recognize me? That question is important because when you're young all you have are good intentions. No money, your passions are your destiny, and are pursued without  malice and agenda. Not everyone can say that about the person that they are now. I've been writing my whole entire life, drawing, singing, reading as well as speaking actual substance. Everything I've ever done has been for the same purpose of the same platform. That purpose is, to be a good person, share my stories, share my life, so I can help other good people be even greater. Sure, I get money to do that NOW but that was always a part of my truth. To be completely honest if ever I didn't, I wouldn't mind one bit. Because when I was doing it at 13, and 14 and 15 and 16 and 17, talking to the kids in my neighborhood, sitting on the bench listening to their pain while thinking of a way to escape from my own, I wasn't getting paid. And I will never regret one day of it. I now understand, it was all part of my personal journey, to my heart crafted ideals of what greatness is. I can only hope using the platforms that I do, with the passion that I have, for an overall happier, more aware and conscious way of life I can continue to spread my version of what life really means. I am in the pursuit of cultivating, nurturing and further becoming black excellence, so that one day maybe boycotting Oscars won't have to be an option because the seats will be filled , no overflowing in abundance of black quality black potential and black success.